:/ WHY!!???!!!

So a few of you already know that I've been referred to a psychologist, (oh the joys -.-) and today I got a letter through saying that I've got an appointment for this Friday. (Dear God help!) Plus my mum and dad have to go. The only reason I eventually agreed to go was because my GP doctor told me that I would be in there alone. I really not happy about this. I fucking pissed off that I have to go i the first place I'm not even sure why I actually have to go. I'm not the only person that cuts or is sad. and I never ASKED for help. I've been pushed into agreeing to all of this because they've been making me feel guilty... this isn't going to help and I don't think even gonna talk (which I did say at the very start of all this too my parents) What's the fucking point then?!I don't think I've ever been this sad and angry at the same time >:( Grrrr...