*Said in Ronnie Radke's voice* I'M BACK

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*Said in Ronnie Radke's voice* I'M BACK

Been away for 10 days with my family... Not the best of times...
I have a question though for anyone who knows anything about here... See about the 'no self harm posts' does that excluded all total mentions of it in a blog... Like even if you're celebrating going a year free or whatever?
Also I need help with something and maybe a little advise, so I know you're probably busy and don't want to deal with me as well as whatever you've got going on but if 1 maybe 2 people could just give their opinion that'd be great! PLEASE!
I've finally found the bestest friend ever! She's awesome and great and I love her to pieces but we're far too similar for my liking... i.e. Both with deep depression and a long history of the now unmentionable. And I really want to help her cause she's 3 years older than me, leaving for uni soon and I want her to be even a little bit more happy before she goes. But I don't know what to do... She says she trusts me and she'll talk to me whenever she needs too but I don't think she will. She's all too good at pretending everything's okay. And after like 5 years, she's got too good at it for others to notice, so really I'm the only one who can read her cause I feel the same a lot of the time. But am I just being untrusting towards her, even though I know for a fact I'm the only person that she told about her recent relapse, should I just trust her and leave it all for a bit or should I be careful?
But also with the fact I'm going through a lot too, and the fact neither of us like opening up to other people what am I supposed to do? Cause I know people consistently bugging me gets on my nerves. But also if no one says anything you kinda get the feeling no one cares. I can't ever tell her anything because I know it'd upset her. She told me with out realising that what she said to me actually applied. I can't repeat it cause one, I don't think I'm allowed to and two it's better no one knows.
I don't blame you if you've stopped reading, or never started, but what would you do if you were going through a lot while someone was a lot worse or pretty much the same. Anything will do! I mean it! I need to fix her. If I can't I don't see the point in anything... Please, one tiny comment! Even if you're criticising me for anything I don't care! I'm at a complete loss here.