You know that feeling when anything and everything builds up and then it just hits you. Like being punched. And after it you're just empty, lost and numb. I don't know if anyone does know what I mean... I'm slowing losing my trust with everyone. I see everyone as an enemy that I must get away from. But when I do that I feel worse. It's just all pointless isn't it? What am I supposed to be achieving when ever day's the same. I have no dreams. I have nothing to achieve in. So what's the use of me being here?
3 days back at school... Nothing's changed, no one gives a damn. People talk to me when it suits THEM. When they have no one else they just chose the person who is 'grateful' that anyone will talk to her. Always the 2nd choice. They don't hate me (well, some of them do) they just don't care. Teachers want to help when I don't need it but when I do no one's their. I don't have any true friends. It's not fair when everyone else has these huge groups and I hiding in a stairwell on my own, anyone who walks past doesn't even question the 15 year old writing in her notebook... I'm invisible.
"When you can't take it, when you can't take it no more; this is what you say - La Di Da Da Da. La Di Da Da Da"
