Just fucking NAW!

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Just fucking NAW!

Sorry. But I have to get this out!
So, I'm Scottish. A very proud Scot who will support pretty much any musician on the basis that they're Scottish.. Obviously I fucking LOVE Twin Atlantic. Kinda new and really making a break for themselves recently.
They are playing 2 shows in Glasgow, both of which I couldn't get tickets for. Until tonight, I was talking about it to someone at my work and she said her friend was selling 2 for this Saturday. It was all arranged. I was paying her 35 quid I was getting 2 awesome tickets the morrow at school. I was so so so happy, and I have depression! I was actually smiling and jumping round about. So fucking happy I had decided tonight (which is no longer happening -.-) I'd take a night off from my usual of well, bad stuff/blades/blood yadayada... So I texted my dad just to let him know about the gig and I wouldn't be in at the weekend, half an hour later he walks in and took me aside cause I work with my brother and said, "You can't go, I've just finished arranging a surprise night for Steven's (my brother who I was working with) birthday because all the other plans got cancelled."
I could of started greeting (crying) then and there! I was utterly gutted and still am! For once in a good wee while, I felt happy. I finally had something to look forward to. But no. Just like everything else I get my hopes up for it gets taken away from me.
Sorry about this, I just get let down all the time. Like my 'friend' keeps lying to me. Telling me we'll meet up sometime then saying she can't come for whatever reason last minute and I go on Facebook and see her going around with other folk, drinking, having a laugh and she knows I'm stuck in this stupid village with nae pals!
I know I'm being a selfish bitch. It's my brother's birthday. I want to be there for him because we are pretty close... It's just... I don't know it just sucks. Sorry about this... I just feel like utter shite.