This probably won't seem bad compared to a lot of other stuff that goes on in the world but right now I'm over thinking this and I need to let it out.
I have a solo talk to do. That sounds so pathetic but I really cannot stand talking in front of people. Honestly I freak out and get adrenaline rushes when my teachers say they'll pick on someone randomly to read out work/answer a question, I feel my heart racing, I go dizzy, my palms start sweating and my eyes fill with tears, And that's just with the THOUGHT of talking in front of a class of say 30 - 40 people. (My school isn't so big)
But what's even worse about this is I'm in the top section for English, and I want to stay in the top section because I love English. It really interests me and I want to become really good at it and develop more stylish writing. But solo talks count for a 1/3 of my grades. And my teacher says as we're top section we should be confident and we're allowed NO notes!!!!
We have to write a speech and use all these techniques like parenthesis to argue for something we believe should happen/change (I've chose LGBT should be accepted in society and marriage should be made legal) But how in the hell am I supposed to do that and get a good enough grade to stay in my class. I'm so scared and I've not even finished my piece yet! I would honestly rather write it as a 10 million trillion word essay than stand for 2 mins in front of my class, have them all looking at me and listening to me and be speaking.
Sorry. I know this is stupid and really childish but I can barely carry a day to day conversation. I HATE attention and the only way I properly socialise is through here, twitter and texting the few people that like me. Sorry. If you've read this congrats and I'm sorry I've wasted your time. But I'm really really scared out my mind. Can anyone tell me I'm not alone? :'/
