Today was much like any other day for me, really bad. But I was feeling slightly worse today as my leg kept seizing up and being fucking annoying, and I screamed during lunch cause it hurt so much when I was walking up the street. But anyhoo I was sitting on my own like usual on my way back from school when I went into this day dream. Long story short it was about someone that I'd really like to be with or at least talk to again cause he helped me a bit when things were even worse than this, and in my day dream we were together, I was happier he was happier and we were just sitting together, like some weird love scene from a movie (yeah that sounds really corny :S) . But when I came out of it I just realised how alone I really am (or at least feel) and I just began thinking about him more, so by this point I was already holding back tears when Dear God by Avenged Sevenfold came on my ipod a I could not stop crying, so I curled up and sobbed the rest of my bus journey home.
The weird thing is, I don't even properly know the guy I'm crying over, I only ever spoke to him on facebook yet I can't go a day without thinking about all the conversations we had and how much I THOUGHT he cared. I miss you Alex.... I don't even have a reason to feel so down. I just... am and feel so incredibly bad. I have near enough no other mood. Man I'm fucking pathetic...
I do have a serious question though, can you get cramps and that from er, cutting around the same part over and over...? :/ Cause that may be what's wrong with my leg if you can.
MV x
