Please help!

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Please help!

I'm having real problems with my friend (she's 20)
I met her 5 years ago at school, she was more of a friend to me than anyone my age. She got me through some hard times, she was the one who told me about MCR and 30STM. In return I was there for her to talk to and I would always help her with problems.
She's now at university in Plymouth so I don't get to see her, we talk on facebook or MSN.
At first it was ok, she didn't need me and I was getting along ok. Now there's a problem for me because she is relying very heavily on me to make it through each day so I'm fighting for two people not just surviving myself. She's had problems with her boyfriend for the past 2 years and I was the one who carried her through, helping her with what to say to him and I was there for her when he was being difficult. It's over between them now and she hasn't recovered so she's been wanting to kill herself, the only thing that stopped her was when she thought of me.
I'm really glad that I meant she didn't kill herself but now I'm having to support her through everything, she always turns to me.
It's getting really silly now and I'm struggling, she's not interested in how I feel, she only wants to talk about her ex and how crap she is feeling, she didn't even care when my grandma had just died. I try and help her as much as I can but I'm not getting anything back and right now I'm not sure I can keep going. She texted me this morning complaining about nightmares she had last night and no matter what I said she kept complaining and making a massive deal out of it, she's been taking sleeping pills since her grandad died 6 weeks ago.
If I leave the friendship she will kill herself and I would be responsible. If I stay in the friendship I can't get the help I need to get out of my depression, so I will sink lower. I've got GCSE exams coming up and I'm stressed because my parents are expecting A*s and perfect marks, which I'm not sure I can achieve.
Anybody got any suggestions? Thanks if you read all the way through :)