well last year when i first started falling in love with mcr i had found out that my dad quit his job and my family couldnt even afford stuff off the dollar menu at mcdonalds my mom was working part time and i was starting to sink into a deep depression. all this has been building up inside me and i nearly killed myself last october. my grades suffered and i would do anything to get out of the house so i took a huge chunk out of my life for school plays. i was in crew so i had an excuse to wear all black. i had injured my ankles and could not drum anymore so i took up piano and i am good at it. but recently my dad got 2 new jobs and my mom is now working full time in a different city. my brother bought a car and has had it for under a month and already has gotten in 2 wrecks and his insurance has sky rocketed once again. my sister is going to college and is working as a nurse and is moving to charlotte nc (about 4 hrs from here) and i will barley see her and her dog (shes a sweet heart) my brother is whineing about not being able to afford stuff when my mom did the math and he will have more money left over than she makes in a week. our fridge broke down for the 2nd time in the past year and we ended up buying a new one with the money we saved from when we payed off my dads car. the AC is down and its blazing hot here the new fridge is coming in today so thats good so my mom told my brother and he said "well wouldnt it be cheaper to just to repair it? i mean really you didnt have to do that" so my mom said "son its not your choice and we still have little to no cash flow right now to repair it also your the one not paying your rent or your cell phone bill so you might as well repair your own stuff so we dont have to put out money to fix things you can fix with money to spare" my keyboard is broken again (the middle c compleatly snapped off) and we cant fix it this time. i cant practice cuz my dad took out a whole octave to try and fix it. my parents have been yelling at me and i have been trying my hardest not to cut myself (and no i will not)
please i need someone to talk to...
~Black Decay
