Feeling shitty for a while...

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Feeling shitty for a while...

People have been telling me that I screw up every day and I know I do but now I don't make a big deal out of the littlest things. I've lost too many things in the past two months... Most of them are friends that mean a lot to me... I wont say who but they know who they are and I am hoping and praying that they are reading this... People ask me "Why do you put so much heart into your music?" or "Why do you obsess over people that you've lost?" I will answer those redundant questions right now. I put all of my heart into my music because I have dreams of regaining a lost friendship with what I write. I obsess over the ones I've lost because I love them dearly. Some people don't care about the fact that I have feelings so they pick on me for doing what I love. Umm... Theres a song I wrote about me losing my best friend... Here are the lyrics

Emily by HAB

You changed my life
You steered me right
You changed someone that could never be changed before

When you came into my life
I never thought it would hurt
But I was oh so very wrong...

Oh Emily! wont you come back to me?
I wore this song hoping it would change
When I told you that you meant a lot to me
It turned around and bit me in the back

Now the thunder is pounding (It's all in my head)
A wet towel to my eyes so I can't see
The pain that's in my head and in my chest
Reminds me of how I used to talk to you!!!

Oh Emily! Wont you come back to me?
I wrote this song hoping it would change
When i told you that you meant a lot to me
It turned around and bit me in the back

The rain is falling down
As I lose my heart
Emily I've been screaming your name
Hoping you could hear!

Oh Emily! Wont you come back to me?
I wrote this song hoping it would change
When I told you that you meant a lot to me
It turned around and bit me in the back

I've lost my friend to stupidity
So please
Oh please
Emily come back to me!

~Black Decay