SUCKY DAY(S)/ PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!! Skip to the "PLEASE HELP ME" to HELP ME!!!!!!!!

Okay... I haven't been on in a while. So far now that christmas is coming almost everyday has been hell. I'm on a budget and I have to buy My best Friend, mommy, 2 bros, 3 sis, 2 grandma, grandpa, daddy, and Aunt/cousin presents. Not as easy as you think when you only have 60 bucks. Normally for my 2 bros and older sis I just go to hot topic and buy things for them... They (like me) have their fav bands so that's easy, my 2 lil sis I have to go to a toy store to buy toys of course, my mommy is picky along with my best friend, my grand parents are a "It's the thought that counts" kind of people... (as am I.) My daddy loves The Simpsons or sponge bob squear pants. lol. My aunt/cousin wants gauges which is at Hot Topic. And almost everything cost a crap load. Everything at hot topic alone is OVER 60 bucks. This is just getting crazier and crazier. I also would like to buy presents for my Pet cats, dogs, and the birds. But it's tough. So I've been going crazy and am starting to strongly dislike Christmas. Today some Fuck head calls me in the middle of christmas shopping and does nothing but call me a bitch. Smart shit blocked their number but my phone company is gonna tell me the number tomorrow and I'm gonna take care of the person who called me. Idk what the hell was going through their head but I was highly pissed. All the stress plus that call pushed me to my limit. And I just want to kick some ass... but hey... I can't I'm too nice. But once I find out who did it... I'm gonna get them. Well..... So far I got all the girls presents and I just need to get all the guys something. So... I'm gonna stick with the band thing for my bros, Simpsons for my daddy, and something that my grandpa will hopefully use and think of me when he does use it. Today after that call... My older sis was with use and we had smoors and watched Saturday Night Live Hosted by TAYLOR LAUTNER!!!!!!!!! lol I was happy till it ended. >=(

PLEASE HELP ME!!!!!!
Oh... Well this has been killing me but I need some help. Around... August or October I ran away from home... If you knew how my mommy is you'd understand why I did it. I went with my daddy a few days before I saddly allowed myself to get cought. Cause before I ran away I knew that my baby sister would be heart broken and my grandparents too, and every waking day that was stuck in my head. I wasn't cought till maybe a week later. I was happy for the first time in my life staying with my daddy (other then the day I went to the Projekt Revolution concert) I was smilling without felling sad deep down inside... I actually felt loved and I cried when the sherif came to his place and told me I had to go with him... I wanted to stay there I cried when I came home... My mom agreed to let me live with my grandparents and I've been quite great here with them. But I don't feel that happiness I have when I visit my daddy. I told my daddy that when I'm 18 I would go and live with him. So I'm wondering..... Should I live with my daddy when I turn 18?

Please let me know what you think....

~jess~