It does make it better trust me

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It does make it better trust me

Hello beautiful MCRmy members! Okay so this blog is going out to those who are struggling with a mental illness and are scarred to get help. First off it does help to tell someone anyone, i first told my bestfriend what was going on i was really scarred that she would judge me and things like that but to my surprise she didn't. She took it quite well actually and made it better for quite a few months after that. I know a lot of you have trust issues and i understand that 100% i really do. But even if you vent to someone on this site i can promise you it makes things better rather than keeping all your emotion inside. Speaking from a personal experience leaving your emotions in can make things a lot worst. I became very suicidal that's how bad things were getting and i truly believe that if i didn't keep all that emotion inside i wouldn't of gotten as bad as i did. After i kept this secret from my parents for nearly a year i finally fessed up to my mum. All because i was scarred for myself. Yes i scarred myself so much. It wasn't a nice feeling at all and i'm sure a number of you can relate to that feeling. I was so scarred to tell my mum like any other kid going through this would but she is getting me the help i need and it is making me feel better. It's a lot of weight off of your shoulders and it's like you can almost live in peace with yourself (for me anyway). Yes i know in some cases some parents will make things worst. I know that but i'm always here if you need to talk okay? Just remember that always <3 Well back to the whole parent thingy. So i wrote a letter to my mum for her birthday explaining why i've been so bitchy, why i've been so sad and moody for the past few months. And to my surprise she understood really well. She didn't get upset that i didn't tell her about it sooner, she was just being there for me. It's not the end of the world because you're showing symptoms of mental illness. It will get better i promise just believe it okay? I love you all and i hope i could help at least one of you <3
xoxo MCRloveforever