i'm just really feeling down. this girl who i hate sits on my table and she insults me all the time. today we were talking about phones and everyone had blackberry's or touch screen phones, and i said "well yeah but my phone is crap as hell" and this girl said "yeah well that goes with your personality" so i ignored her for a few minutes and said "i don't like blackberry's or touch screens because the keys are either to small or just annoying" and she said "that's because your fingers are too fat" and i got really upset by that because for the past 2 years i've always been really unconfident about what i look like so i told my killjoy friend "seriously i'm so gonna kill her if she keeps being horrible to me" and her friend said "why do you always go to her?" and i didn't say anything i just looked at my watch and said i had to go so i couldn't cause another argument so i said bye and left.
now i really don't have many friends, but the ones that pretend to be nice to me than stab me in the back. and the ones i have are either in the years below me, in the years above me or don't talk to me that much. my killjoy friend is pretty much the only friend i have that is the same age as me and talks to me.
now i don't know who my real friends are. people hate me because of my temper and music taste but in the past i'd always change myself so i can get a real friend, but now i know where i belong.here. but my peers are horrible to me because of it (sometimes even my friends) so i'm just so depressed.
i only have one true friend my age.
that sucks.
i hate myself right now, why is everyone mean to me alot?
a depressed blood bunny signing off
