flying turds :(

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flying turds :(

that has definatly caught your attention, hi killjoys here's another filler to my boring life.
god bless that this website isn't blocked or i would go insane. i'm here in the humanities department on the computers instead of lessons because i'm finally moving science classes (haven't been going for about 4 weeks due to bullying) and they've finally doing, but learning support is busy due to exams so i'm sitting here.
also i'm feeling a bit better from my depressing phase but i do still feel like my ambitions of being in a band are never going to happen and that i will die old and alone somewhere due to the despair and agony of life, also how i will never amount to anything because i'm a useless twat.
everyone says to me "you're 13 it gets better" it can on occasion but never to me because what do i deserve for being a twat. it's called karma.
i'm in a really bad situation when i have to smile the fakest, cheesiest grin every so people don't go "are you alright?" or "what's wrong" because apparently if i don't smile i'm fucking depressed, well maybe i am fucking depressed due to you putting me down and calling me names for you own fucking amusment when i secretly pray every night for this agony to end. IS THAT FUCKING ENTERTAINING??????

sorry i had to vent, i just hate my life so much now and to be honest everyone thinks i'm fine because i'm a bloody good liar.
blood bunny signing off