My family is falling apart again. Tomorrow (October 8) is my mom and step dad's anniversary of 7 years. That's their marriage anniversary, but we've all been living together for 12 years.
The first time my family fell apart still haunts me, but it was because the constant screaming and fighting. Now, my step dad is in prison. And he might not get out.. The reason he was arrested we don't believe he did, but if he tells us he did do it, we can't stay with him. I'm trying to stay strong for my mom, brother, and sister but it's so hard. I'm living to hear the recorded versions of Conventional Weapons, mainly The World Is Ugly which comes out in December. Everything keeps getting worse and I don't know how strong I can stay. I feel physically weak and can barely eat. I'm losing another dad but can't express it to my family because they are so broken already. I cried lightly in front of my mom twice. My sister and brother keep breaking down and my mom broke down twice when she punched the walls. I want them to forget and try to hold on to the fake sanity in the world.... Thanks for reading. I needed that off my chest. Live for whatever is in the future. I live to hear MCR... I want to meet them one day so I can tell them in person how many times they saved me. My mom keeps telling me she would understand if I wanted to leave her and MCR gives me the strength to help get through this and help her too. Stay the beautiful and strong creatures you know you are. And live. Keep fighting. Never let them take you down. I love you all<3
