I'm not sure how I manage to land myself in this position; the friend zone. Yet once again, I've done just that. The guy I like, is a friend of mine, and somehow, talking to me all of the time, has made me, not a person he would go on a date with, but rather, I am the friend he goes to to ask "do you have any friends I could take on a date?". I must say, it was something of a disappointment to be asked that. I'm honestly starting to think that there is something about me, that makes me non-dateable! LOL Seriously, guys like being my friend, but none of them seem interested in anything other than a friendship. I mean I'm starting to think there is something legitimately wrong with me. Do I give off some kind of vibe that stops guys from being able to be interested in me? I mean I know my friend likes hanging out with me, talking to me, I know I make him laugh, I listen to everything he needs to talk about, and he talks to me when he has problems. Just like all of my guy friends do... but I'm not someone he's interested in as more than a friend. What am I doing wrong here? lol I'm not sure if this is a rant, or not. I think it's more of a please tell me what I'm doing wrong thing. haha It's kind of annoying. I mean I know I'm not insanely attractive, but I'm not ugly. I mean I'm not someone who NEEDS a relationship... but sometimes I just think it would be nice, having someone to fall in love with, and having someone to love me in return. I've never been in love. My friends all seem to be meeting people, and they're all so happy in their relationships, I kind of want to be as happy as them. I've not been legitimately happy in a long time. I know a boyfriend won't fix that, but part of me can't help but want it. I want to wake up one morning, and think, I have someone to share my life with in a sense. At the rate I'm going though, this isn't going to happen for a very long time. I'm seriously worried I'm never going to have that close, loving relationship with someone. As of now, I'm the girl who has tons of guy friends, and none of them seem to think I can be more than a friend. Even though I've had crushes on some in the past, and currently have a crush on one of them. I am sorry for this long blog. I've just been thinking too much here lately, and it's something I needed to get off of my chest, in a place where no one can use it against me, somewhere safe.
