Been Feeling Down

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Been Feeling Down

I been feeling very lonely. I feel like I don't fit in with my friends. That we are pulling away from each other. But I am not sure. I don't laugh with them and I am just standing there being awkward. They having more exciting stuff going on and I am just a bore to them I think. They don't ask me to hand out or text me. Nothing like that at all. I am not sure. I just feel like what am i doing here, with these people and are they really my friends. But it not bad that I am lonely I like it (sometimes but then there is music). I am becoming more of a loner. I barely go out. Seems right now music is my only friend right now and it is all I need. My family I been putting on smile but not a real one. Sometimes i put on the smile sometimes I don't at all. It it hard to pretend that ur happy when everything is not okay. Everyone does it. I just want to diappear. Never come back to this stupid small town. Make music and try to be happy. I in a dark place and I see no light. Life is hard and the world is ugly. People are furstrating. Things been really down lately.

Thanks Killjoys for reading this. It means a lot when you comment and read this thanks.