Letters to Helena 25!

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Letters to Helena 25!

Dear Helena
Here am I. In front of the tour bus of My Chemical Romance, I was so nervous, I felt weird, excited but scared. I looked at my watch…1:00, would I interrupt? Will someone receive me? I looked around, there they were all the stuff of the merch, I smiled and started walking towards it. Step by step looking carefully at everything around me but then I felt some hands covering my eyes and I let out a little scream
“Guess who am I and I’ll set you free” said a playful voice which I totally recognize
“C’mon Maddie” I said discovering the her “Set me free and give me a hug”
“Ash!” she said and I finally saw the light again “You’re always so good”
I smiled and so did she, I missed her so much and she looked so different. I hugged her so hard and so did she and let me tell you that she has so much force that I couldn’t breathe. I missed her and it looks like she also did, I started laughing kind of nervous and she finally let go of me and smiled warmly
“We thought we wouldn’t see you again” she said
“I had to come back, I missed you so much guys” I answered
“We also did” she smiled “Especially someone”
I smiled and she got my hand and without saying nothing she started running and I followed her well…I needed to, she’s stronger than me and well, I was curious. We finished in front of the tour bus and she was smiling, a really excited smile and I smiled back. It felt kind of weird but still
“Where is MJ” I said “I need to see her and hug her hard”
“She’s kind of busy” she answered fast, which meant she was hiding something “I’ll bring her now but for the moment place your stuff inside”
“I just brought money for the gifts and for me to buy some clothes since I left everything back there”
“Well” she said and she opened the door “Just go in” and she pushed me inside
I felt down on right inside and she closed the door and I could hear her laugh. I immediately got up, and looked inside, nobody to find. I smiled and got up, thank goodness nobody saw my fall. I started walking slowly and carefully but to see that there wasn’t anything to do, I threw myself at the floor and got my cell phone and ear phones out and placed music but not the full volume. I felt back at home, awesome! I felt loved again…awesome! I just needed to see MJ and hug her hard and my life will be extra awesome!
“Maddie!” I heard a voice and I got up, the door was open but soon was closed and again, I heard Maddie’s laugh. I couldn’t see who it was because I couldn’t see him, yes it was a guy, not whichever guy…it was him.
“Maddie” he said and pushed the door “Get me out of here now”
“No I won’t” Maddie laughed but I just stayed there quiet, he would see me. Well I thought that
“Madison” he said “Tell me one stupid reason for me to be trapped on the tour bus”
“I never thought I could be a stupid reason” I finally said and he turned to see me. His mouth dropped open as he blushed and I fought not to blush and he started to walk slowly towards me “I mean I was also trapped in here but I never thought it could have been for a stupid reason, nothing is stupid in my point of view because if you see it well, everything happens for one reason and well sometimes for good sometimes for bad and oh my goodness did I became a fool? I mean, I’m nervous yes, I’m nervous. I better shut up”
Dear beautiful and missed Helena…what the hell went on with me!? Why did I never stop talking!? TELL ME WHY!? I felt so dumb and stupid and worst of all…I said it to him!! Yes Helena…Ray, I said it to him.
“Ash” he slowly said as he got in front of me “Is it you?”
“Emmm…” I said and looked down so he wouldn’t see how I was starting to blush “Yes, it’s me”
“I missed you so much”
“Not as much as I did” I answered and finally looked up, he was smiling from ear to ear and I smiled back but nervous “I’m sure about it”
I felt so weird, beautifully weird, I felt like butterflies on my stomach…it sounds childish but that’s exactly how I felt. I mean, well you know, that I have a huge secretly crush on him since we were both in high school but I was always scared and then he became famous and I’m becoming, we both went out different ways but now, face to face, I felt…in love, I felt safe, I felt so…so…so happy and beautiful in this ugly world.
He slowly got my hands and held them tight, they were so warm and soft. I smiled and he leaned down, I didn’t know what to do. Could I? Should I? Yes I should. I also did, slowly and scared. And it happened, his lips pressed mines, it felt so beautiful, so amazing, finally something beautiful going on. I could never feel better, promise Helena.
“Oh my” we heard a voice and we separated to see MJ standing there “I should leave you guys alone and come later”
“MJ!” I yelled in happiness and hugged her “I missed you so much!”
“I also did Ash” she laughed “But let me breathe, I can’t breathe”
I got away from her and smiled. Life is now beautiful Helena. I can’t be happier anymore, my heart is finally happy and now things will be better, I hope they do. For now, let’s go for the Secret Santa gifts
Loving you so much
Ash
(Thank you, merry killjoy, my wonderful sister!)