Just a rant, nothing more.

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Just a rant, nothing more.

This is just something I needed to say, it doesn't even matter if you read it, you can skip past it if you want. I just had to say it. So, thanks to the ad on facebook with Frank, I watched a video called Farm to Fridge. Now I kind of want to give up meat, especially since I don't really even like meat that much, aside from bacon and pepperoni. But here's the thing: no matter how I feel, even if I'm depressed as hell and don't think life is worth shit, pepperoni pizza and/or bacon can ALWAYS put me in a good mood. It sounds really shallow, but it's true. I can be about to cry, wanting nothing more than for everyone and everything to just go away, but those two foods can always make me happy again. Fuck. Now I sound like a fatass who just sits there eating constantly, doesn't even get out of bed, just sits there in her pajamas having food brought to her every second. I'm not like that, I swear. But those are two things that make me happy. Do you know how many things make me truly happy? I can count them on my fingers. One hand, probably. And two of them are bacon and pepperoni pizza. But I feel like an asshole because I still eat meat, and still plan to, even after watching that video. It makes me wonder, what the fuck is wrong with me that I can watch that heartbreaking video and still know that I'll keep eating meat? Am I a fucking soulless monster who doesn't care about the pain of animals? But I do. I care about animals more than humans. So why am I still eating animals? Fuck. I guess I can just add this to the ever-growing list of things wrong with me. I'd list it all here, but as I learned when my grandmother made me say everything that's wrong with me, the list is too long to tell it all. Anyway, that's all for now. I just needed to say it. I tried to talk about it with one of my best friends, and she just keeps going "Mhmm... I like meat." Not really very helpful.
~Explosive Sunlight