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20th February 2010

Well hey theree,

I haven't actually posted on here since November :/
I think I've got over my 100% obsession with MCR, and widened my vision.
I now get 'musically turned on' by other bands such as A7x, ALL TIME LOW :D, CiWWaF, 3DG, Panic!, bmth
And my friends' band, Broken Chord :3

I will attempt to repost on here more often, but at the moment I feel I have had a marital disagreement with MCR. [LOL :')]
I fear their next album, so eagerly-awaited, will not be the epic album, that we all hope for, but in fact a wannabe popular, mainstream band.
A nightmare come true, all the plastics in my year raving about mcr.
Jeez, just the thought makes my abdominal muscles clench ._.

Since my last post, I decided to take the leap and change my bus. It's one of the best things I have done in my high school life. I have now discovered that infact, I am not the only one like me in my school, but in the year above, there are in fact, several. I have made a lot more friends for life > Laura, Ben, Becky, Iain, Tom, Zahida etc.

I used to be edging towards actual depression, before I found these people, but I now have found people that I can be myself with, besides Amber. I have discovered that there is more to life then obsessing about meeting a band.

I have finally added some of the 'Life on the Murder Scene' songs to my iPod, because frankly I was so obsessed with mcr that I viewed them as perfect. But nobody's perfect; therefore whenever I hear Gerard drunkly 'singing' and the band desperately racing to keep up, it reminds me that, in fact nobody's perfect, but we can all pull ourselves out of the pit that we are sitting in. In Gee's case, it was him being drunk. I can keep up the will to fight against life's battles.

I am currently feeling incredibly lonely, as out of the people I mentioned earlier, two are now a couple, and three have found someone to love. Being younger, I can only hope that this time will eventually come for me, but I can't help wondering if it never will. Teenage years are an emotional time in life, and frankly, I can't wait for them to come to an end. I don't want to become old, in fact it is the thing I fear most, but I do not wish to remain on a hormonal roller-coaster, feeling alone.

My name is Lydia [duh], and I am fifteen. If you want to add me, I make a good friend [I think] and I am looking for people to talk to.
LyDiiAA_x@hotmail.com

If you read all of this, I congratulate you on your perseverance. I'm not going to read it again myself =3

Bye bye
<3