hell has more than one description

Been the worst two days ever. I tried to go over my bfs house to see how he was doing and his mom basically screamed at me and him because she apparently doesn't allow people, much less girls over. So she left saying "we're going to talk you and me are going to have a talk." Honestly I don't which one of us she was talking to. Im scared for both him and me. He didn't come to school yesterday or today and its only 10:18am. I feel sick to my stomach with paranoia because of what his mom could possibly be thinking of us and what we do... which I might add is nothing.

I Want To Die.
Im Going To Die.