My mom, I love her she gave me my life. I am forever grateful for a loving mom that she is, that is until she snaps. Just a few hours earlier we were laughing while making dinner. She smiled, I smiled, there was not a problem in the world, we were bonding as mother and daughter. I took a nap, suddenly I woke up. I heard some screaming, obviously she was angry again but why?
She asked me to do one thing and I messed it up. I had the lecture of a lifetime. One day I am her pride and joy and the next I'm the worst daughter a mother could ever have. She says I have no manners, I apologize; she says I'm lazy, I thought that was normal; she says I can't do a single thing right, I'm sorry. Sometimes she even says I'm useless, I know she doesn't mean it she's only saying that because she's mad. But sometimes stupid words like that get to me. At first me and my sister laugh it off but then I go to my room or bathroom and cry it off. Im not trying to make my mom seem like a bad person because she's not, shes just tough. I know talking about it in a blog isn't going to help and that i should really tell her how I feel when she says those horrible things. The thing is that I have not yet sumed up the courage to do that. Sometimes when all she does is criticize I leave her to talk to herself lock my self in my room and turn up the music all the way. MCR, just what I needed, full of beautiful and positive words. Sometimes I feel myself sink into my own little world filled with MCR songs, the only place where I am safe from harm.
