Why I Love My Life!

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Why I Love My Life!

So it's been a while since I've bloged, but I just wanted to tell you why I look at my life in a whole new way. For a long time now I've been feeling sorry for myself, because I thought I needed someone to make me happy all the time... if I didn't have this I thought I would never be happy. A few days ago I had a melt down about my life, I wanted it to change, but I didn't know how to make that happen. Till my mom pulled me aside and told me about myself, how I was the only one making myself not happy and that I was stopping myself from moving forward. She told me that I had one life to live and that if I stayed the way I was, I was going to make myself very sick and unhappy. In my head the words my mom was telling me didn't want to stick in my head, so I told her I just didn't know how to change and that I tryed but just couldn't do it. But my mom told me about myself again saying I wasn't trying and that I needed to stop caring for what others thought of me and just think for me. She said it was time I started loving myself as much as the peopel around me did and that I had a heart of gold and not many young ladys can say that today. My mom opened my eyes to what life could be if I just believe in myself. So I faced my fear and went to church today and I really liked it! I hope I get to sing in the choir with them! I'm also not scared to be myself and be silly, I have all the love and happines I need here with my family and my new found sister and best friend. without them I believe I would still be lost. I have also accepted that what I do as a house keeper,cook,maid,dog tranner,land scaper, and all around good hearted soul is work and a job I just dont get paied for it, and thats okay! See with my problems I can't work a real job but if I ever wanted to try it I can only work part time. But you see I love my job now being a maid I feel I'm the best maid around! You see I'm simply just one hell of a maid! lol So that's it KillJoys for now I hope you have a wonderful night. Good Night enjoy the artwork I put up it's not mine.