Just feeling sad! :(

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Just feeling sad! :(

So, hey everyone it's been a while since I wrote to you but here it gos. A lot has changed this pass year. Lets start with why I'm sad, I was in a five year relationship that was a lie! Now what that means is the love wasn't real and what ever we had faded away. We had ower fights but I thought we could have worked them out but no! He wants to not come home one day and the next day say I'm moving out. So he did but we were still together. So he promised me he would talk,text,and see me every day and I believed him. It never came he only cared about himself he never cared for me. He never wanted to grow up he's 20 years old and he still wants to buy video games and toys and stuff for his car. I was dying inside for three months waiting for him to step up but he never did. We had a black out and he lied to me and told me he had no power come to find out he did have power he just didn't want to share it! Anyway I broke it off cause I was going to be sick from stressing about him but when I did it was like he was waiting for it. I'm trying to be strong but I feel a big whole in my heart. I'm also sad cause I like an old friend and just my luck he is with someone but it dosen't seem to be importent but I'm not doing anything I'm just waiting to see how it turns out. But on a good note I re-did my hair my nails are very long and I'm looking for work singing as always and just living day by day. I'm just hurt and I feel alone. I hope this gos away soon well killjoys I hope everything is going well for you!