UGH

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UGH

why do i feel this much pain? i just really am so confused. i hate this. i just want all my bad feeling to go away. i hate feeling absolutely fine one week and then feel like absolute shit the next. it never goes away. i hope to hear back from the social worker i was talking to. she was supposed to find me a counselor to go to so i can get all my feelings out. i just want to give up on everything. i have these urges to just smoke or drink and be completely reckless. i've never drank or got high before. and i get these strong urges to hurt myself and i try to fight those back as much as i can but i'm not sure how long i can do this. i just want it to be over.

~ESOMbullets