I Have To Say It

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I Have To Say It

It helps me to post a blog and tell you guys how i'm feeling. Whether i'm happy or depressed, it helps to document my feelings here. So last night i cried. I was alone in my room by the computer and out of nowhere i cried. I'm not really sure why i cried but i guess it's my response to everything in my life. I hide my feelings and no one knows about my depression but you guys and it helps me open up a little more when i say it here. I'm thinking of telling my friend about my depression but i'm not sure how to do that. Most of the time when i'm with friends i'm laughing, going crazy and telling jokes so i'm not sure who i can get serious with and tell them something like this. It's my fault though, i turn to comedy to hide my feelings and feel better. It's what i've been doing since i was a little girl. I always do something foolish and laugh and no one suspects a thing. I came close to telling my close friend about my depression. And i almost told my boyfriend but right now i'm scared to get that close to someone. I don't like being vulnerable. But i know it would be best if i told someone else how i'm feeling.