I Don't Know What To Do

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I Don't Know What To Do

My sisters are not speaking to each other. It's been so weird at home because we used to be so close now i'm caught in the middle between them two. We'd always joke around and now it's too awkward for them to be in the same place together. They stopped talking basically because my sister khadira got pregnant and my other sister, jaleesa, doesn't approve. She's disappointed in her and stopped talking to her. I'm not happy she got pregnant either but i think that at this time in her life the last thing she needs is her own family not showing support. It's like everything is falling apart. My mom hasn't said anything about it she just let this happen. It's so hard seeing my family break down like this. i miss the old days when we would talk for hours and have dance parties for only the three of us. My relationships with the ones closest to me are broken. My sister are spreading apart and i haven't spoken to my father in forever. My relationship with my father has been broken for some years now and i know i could never forgive him. So to try and make myself feel better i decided to ask my crush out. I wanted someone to trust and talk to. I don't normally feel comfortable opening myself to others because i have trust issues. I've been having a rough time and wanted to finally open up so i got into a relationship. And it might sound really selfish but i do also really like him and i had a huge crush on him for about a year. But over the last few weeks i haven't heard from him. We had a date and he didn't come. I felt like an idiot waiting for him in times square for a whole hour. Since then i haven't heard from him. i texted him because instead of being really upset i wanted to know what happened. My sister and my friends think i'm being stupid by giving him a chance and they say that i should break up with him. But i'm really worried about him. he didn't seem like the kind of guy who would ditch a date and not say anything. It's been too much for me to think about and so i wanted to get this off my chest.