Has never been so tempting.

Has this ever happened to any of you?

I feel so weak and so sick, on the verge of throwing up. I can feel my heart racing. I have diabetes, so if I throw up I have to go to the hospital. My mind is like 'there's something wrong' but I can't figure out what. This has been going on for 3 days, since I read the hunger games. At first i thought it was because of the book, which was somewhat disturbing, but that wouldn't last for so long... I'm freaking out so bad, my friends are calling MCR crap, and honestly, suicide has never been so tempting. I cut for the first time in 2 months. Last night I tried to Sleep, I took 2 sleeping pills at 9 but couldn't sleep till at least 4. And I woke up at 9. Today I tried to take a nap and ended up laying there for 2 hours still unable to sleep. I'm afraid of what's going to happen tonight, I'm afraid of ending up in the hospital. If I don't I don't want to lie awake for hourse sleepless. I want to Sleep so much right now but I cant. I HAVE to eat something because of my diabetes. I'm so afraid of the future, and so afraid of life. I want to die. Someone please help me.