The Black Swan, Romeo and Juliet, Betrayal, and Love

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The Black Swan, Romeo and Juliet, Betrayal, and Love

Oh my god I went and saw that movie with my girlfriend and it was so creepy. Creepy weird and lesbian sex scene creepy... O_O
Very bloody. And sexual. And the main chick dies in The End because of suicide. Natalie Portman... If I was still into Star Wars I would be devastated. Lol the mom in the movie is just like one of my friend's mothers...
Speaking of which, her mom is telling her shit saying that my mom is talking shit about her, which is absolute bull.
I wish I could "Say What I wanna say." There's so much I wanted to say to my girlfriend last night, I was almost going insane from how much I wanted to say but I wasn't able to do it... So finally I just grabbed her and held her for a really long time, which made the insane feeling go away after a little bit...
I typed out a 4 page long note. She gave me a note after 2nd period today, but it wasn't what I expected. I'm kind of wondering if she read my note yet... People are harrassing her for going out with me. If they're harrassing her I want to be harrassed too. There's nothing wrong with me. I don't know why people are doing this. It's retarded. One of our "friends" is telling everyone we're going out, and another person told my mother.
Romeo and Juliet: Romeo's parents learned of who he loved from his friend Benvolio, and my teacher was like "wouldn't it suck if your parents learned things about you from your friends?" I died inside, because that's how it is. I can hardly even act like I'm going out with her because everyone reports back to my mother. She wouldn't even let me and my GF sit elsewhere at the theater last night, because she "didn't want to sit alone," which is absolute crap. Of all people, I didn't want my mom to know. Now shit's going to happen.
My friend got beat by her mom. I cut myself yesterday... Considering changing my Killjoy name to "Cyanide Extermination." I changed my gaiaonline name to "Exterminate the Dream," because I might be forced to break up with my girlfriend.
I couldn't deal with that. I love her more than I've loved anyone else, and she makes me so happy. I can't believe these two guys would do this. It's the most horrible Way possible to betray me, is to my mother...
Seriously though... I might die if I can't tell her what I want to tell her. (My girlfriend.) I hate not being able to hug her or kiss her or hold her hand in public because of my mother. It's driving me crazy. My mom always drives us places (because we were best friends before) so yeah... I wish she'd leave me and my friends alone... I hate everything.

--Summer Cyanide--