I hate when people ask if you're okay.

On the outside, I usually say "yeah, i'm just tired." but on the inside, i'm thinking something along these lines: NO I'm not fucking okay, everything is slipping away and my life sucks. I ruin everything and I drive away everyone that means something to me. I find some way to screw something up every day and I'm not good enough for anyone. I live in a dead end town and want to get out, but I've got nowhere else to go. I can't even figure out how to have a somewhat normal conversation with other people. Now, do you think I'm okay?

But I can't say that to anyone because I don't want to freak them out. I just want to feel okay again. I want to be happy again.