No cute gifs today friends.
So I've been trying to fight it my best on my own, but I just can't anymore. I have depression and I can't fight on my own.
The weight of the world has been pressing down on me. My chest feels hollow and I feel numbing sadness all the time. I can't fight alone anymore.
I can write all I want, I can run from it but I need help. I understand.
I've been offline for a while now because seeing all the blogs from you my fellow Killjoys was killing me. I want to help all of you like I wanted help when I was younger. I can't help without being helped myself.
I'm trying to write it out best I can, and I'm trying to stay strong because I'm sick of crying, I'm sick of being angry, and lonely and riding inspiring highs and rock bottom lows.
I'm getting help.
And it's times like this I listen to more MCR then ever. I loose myself in it, I mean really, when I'm on that down slide I depend on the soothing sound that they have that helps me pull out of my misery.
I will never harm myself, mark me on that but I just wanted to give a shout out, to those that help me rebuild my norms that I crave in those fleeting moments.
These kind of songs make me happy...If someone can over come depression and prescription drug addiction, maybe there's hope for me.
Thanks Gerard.
-KobraGeekGirl
--Heather.
