10years:/

i seriously can not believe that in 10days it will be 10years since the terrible day of 9/11. like fuck. i still cant talk about it without crying. im crying just typing this blog. 10years ago i thought my aunt was dead, she was supposed to be in the pentagon in a meeting in the part of the building where the plane hit. the meeting was cancled and she came to visit us as a suprise instead, i thank god everyday for her safety<3 i still remember being in 2nd grade watching the tv with my best friends hand in mine crying, watching the 2nd plane hit, watching the bodies fall. fuckk. i hate my old school for actully letting us watch that happening, i know it was a big thing but we were so fucking young. and my family being part of the firehouse and ems i know alot of rescue workers who lost their lives. i wish i could just have them back.
im just kind of rambling on just trying to let out my feelings so i dont slip up and do stupid things, i just needed to kinda get this out of my system, sorry if the blog doesnt really make sense or matter.