Accepting the deceased

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Accepting the deceased

So it was hard for me to accept what had happend. Well that's the understatment of the year. I cried hysterically for about 3 days i didn't do anything i layed in bed and i stared at the ceiling, i couldn't listen to music because my heart would break i couldn't go on twitter or tumblr...It was heartbreaking so i just pretended it never happened went in my own world and thought "They're still together, they will do a new tour i will see them live everything is fine they wouldn't do that to me..." but that did no good because if i ever saw anything MCR related my heart would break again...Then i got angry I threw my CDs around (Smashing my bullets CD) i ripped down my posters down and just hated everything including myself...I don't know how i got over that i'm still not fully over it (not even close) and it's probably 'cause i haven't fully given up in them, i still have hope and that hope will get me through, save me all the other times that i've been saved by the music and the people. Because without hope what are we.