wtf is wrong with me?

OI finally told my mom I suffer depression, I told her I want to talk to someone. I told her I'm not okay, I told her I know somethin serious is wrong with me. As I write this I am balling my eyes out. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't know If I have something to live for. I don't be alive right now. FUCK! I need some help, I feel so helpless. What's going on, why am I crying. I surivivng cause I know mcr wants me too. I just cant feel like I can sruvive anymore. Please help me!