"Daddy...? Daddy?"
I felt someone shake my shoulder, and I groaned, rolling over.
I'd been up late waiting for Becki with the others, but she didn't come back. Frank had sent me
to bed around 4 O'clock, and I'd ended up crying myself to sleep.
I couldn't believe it. What had I'd done? I'd turned on her over such a little thing. She'd even said she didn't feel that way anymore. But I'd been such an asshole to her. I'd ruined everything...And I hated myself for it.
"Wha...?" My eyes flickered open, and I blinked in surprise at my little Bandit. Her face is sad, her eyes shining with...tears. I sat up immediatly, all sleepiness disapearing instantly.
"What's wrong, sweetie?"
"S...S..." She burst into tears, and said in a broken voice. "SISSY'S GONE! She's gone, she's gone, she's gone!!"
My heart came to a screeching stop, and I felt like I couldn't breath.
She was...No, she wouldn't just leave like that...No, no, not my Becki...
The picture of her tear streaked, heart broken eyes and shattered face flashes into my mind and I realized.
It was because of me. I'd driven her away.
"D-Daddy?" Bandit sniffled, holding out a envelope. "This is from Sissy..." I see her reach up and I notice she's caressing Becki's silver heart locket, but I let my eyes fall to the envelope,
now resting in my hands.
It's creassed, and Ray, Frank, Mikey, the girls, Mom, Ali, Mia, Lyn, and Gerard written in Becki's beautifully messy scrawl across the frount.
I slowly open it with shaking fingers, feeling as though my breath has turned to lead in my lungs, I unfolded the smooth drawing paper and read.
'Dear my beloved family,
'I'm sorry it had to come to this. I'm sorry I didn't...
'I'm leaving. And now'll you'll never have to deal with me again. Maybe you all know why I've gone already and I just wanted to say that even though our time was short, and maybe I wasn't able to learn everything about you all and you about me, I want you all to know I love you all very much. With every fiber of my heart and soul, though both worn and fragile...I love you.
'You gave a girl like me, that you found in the middle of nowhere and brought home, a place in your hearts and I'm greatful to all of you for it, but I guess it was too good to be true.
'Tell Frank B. and Nat I'm sorry I didn't say goodbye in person, and tell Link...
'Goodbye everyone. I pray your lives will be happy, and will a heavy heart , I'll say I love you one last time.
May the gods watch over you.
-Becki Blue Ivy,
P.S
Gerard. Adios, my red haired diva. And I don't hate you...Even if I did, it's not like it would help anything now...Would it?
~B'
I set the letter down, before scooping up Bandit and hugging her tightly, the little girl burrying her face in my hair.
"....You get my sissy back, Daddy..." She sniffled, her little arms wrapping around my neck. "You get her back...okay?"
"I will baby..." I feel a prickle in my eyes, but I kept my voice strong as I said it.
She curled up in bed with her still asleep mother, and I stood up, before almost dead walking downstairs. Frank and the others were still asleep, and I felt tears well as I shook Frank awake.
He blinked up at me confused, and I answered, just as the tears ran down my face, Becki's letter slipping from my fingers as I chocked out.
"...She's gone, Frankie...Our little angel is gone..."
That realization, hearing it actually spoken aloud was a punch to the gut.
She was gone. And I wasn't going to see her again. I'd never see her smile at me. Never see her laugh or feel her hug me while she slept.
His eyes widened in horror, and I was down, falling to the floor as I sobbed quietly. I felt him get up, and wrap his smaller frame around mine, as if trying to protect me from my inner pain.
"...Don't cry, Gee...We'll get her back..."
"...It was me, Frankie..." I said, my throat aching from still surpressed tears. "If I hadn't...If I hadn't acted the way I did..."
"There's no point in being a pansy about what you did, Gerard." He said, pulling away and looking at me, a very small smile on his face. "Come on. We'll get her back. So..." He wiped away the tears on my face, grinning. "So, stop crying, k? I hate seeing you so upset."
I looked up at him, my eyes wide.
"...Thank you, Frank." I felt something like hope begin to well in my heart. We'd find her. We'll find her and I'd tell her I was sorry.
But what if she doesn't want to come back? That question shattered any hope, and I slumped against the couch.
"We'd better wake the others, Gee..." Frank said, pushing himself up. "We need to find Becki and bring her home."
"Frank...What if...What if she won't come? What if she doesn't want to come bac-?"
"Don't." He said suddenly, his eyes narrowing. "I swear to God, Gerard...You finish that sentence...and I will be forced to kill you."
I bite my lip, looking away.
"Sorry..."
Frank shakes Ray and Mikey awake, and the three of them read the letter. By the end, Mikey's tearing and Ray and Frank are in shock.
"Becki...Oh, God, Becki..." Mikey puts his head in his hands, and I felt like hitting myself when I heard him sniff. I hadn't seen him cry since our grandma died...
Ray looks like he'd like to cry as well, but he just sat, paralyzed, the letter sitting limply in his hands.
"She really gone..." He said, his eyes wide. "I...I can't..."
He quickly rubbed his eyes, inhaling deeply.
"...So? What are we going to do?"
There was absolute silence in the living room. I tried to swallow, but the silence was ringing in my ears.
I was about to speak when there was a loud banging at the door. We all jumped, and I slowly got up and headed to the door, opening it.
"Ye-?"
"You stupid prick! It's all your fault!" A fist connected with my cheek and I staggered back, hitting the coat rack. I felt a searing pain in my cheek and my eyes watered as I looked up.
Tall, black hair and green eyes.
"Link!?" Ray was looking at him in surprise.
He was breathing heavily, his eyes, even though swollen with tears, were narrowed in a firey hatred. His fists were curled, and he was shaking. Not in anger though.
"...It's all your..." He choked, sucking in a breath. "All your..." He covered his face, leaning against the wall and slipping down. "You..."
"Link..."
He was crying into his hoodies sleeves, gulping and trying to keep himself calm, but it clearly wasn't working.
Ray walked over to him, kneeling in frount of him and squeezing his shoulder, and Link said, his voice sounding like a little kids.
"She stopped at my house...after you fought, Mr.Way..." I froze, listening. "She was so...broken.
She looked like a corpse...And she was crying so much...She fell asleep in my arms, and...she kept saying your name, Gerard..."
He looked up at me, and I felt the blood drain from my face.
"She kept saying how much she loved you...and how much what you did hurt her..."
He wiped his face, before looking at me with sympathetic, yet strange, green eyes. They were bewitching, even to me.
Witch eyes.
"...You were a very lucky man, Mr.Way..." He smiles, putting his hands in his pockets. "...She loves you so much...and I know that you love her as well...But..." He looks back at me, biting his
lip. "You all aren't the only ones who lost someone you love..."
The underlining meaning of what he said sunk in.
He was in love with Becki.
I blinked at him, and I straightened up, reaching up and feeling my cheek. I'd only been punched so many time. Each time for a very good reason. This one included.
And for the first time all day...I felt very clear headed.
"...I'm sorry, Link." I found myself saying, and the boy looked at me in surprise. "But...Thank you. For snapping me out of it."
He nods.
"...You're welcome. So?" He clears his throat. "Any idea where B went?"
No one answered.
"...I think, Sissy...," They all turned, seeing Bandit suddenly sitting on the top of the couch, her bear in her arms. Her face is expresionless, but I saw a reflection in her eyes as she looked up at me. "She said she was going...back where she came."
Her eyes were sparkling and held a light of defience that I knew all too well. Becki's light had passed into my little girl.
"Well, that's a start...I guess." I say, gazing out the window at the sunny cloudless sky I'd seen every day since I'd started living here.
Different from the skies I grew up under, and different from the skies whereever Becki was, but as the sun shone down and warmed the once chilly room where so many tears where shed, the bad memories from the night being burned away.
Leaving a new outlook in it's wake.
I felt a smile pull at my lips, and I let it come.
We had hope.
To Be Continued.
Ellloo!
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