Lately, I've felt kinda...I don't know how to explain it, but I think I might've had a twin.
You know that people say they have twins in the womb and they lost them, but they feel it? The FEEL their twin is still with them and they feel their loss?
That's kinda how I feel.
I feel like someones missing in my life. That someone should be there but isn't.
I feel that...I should have a brother.
But I lost him and how I carry him with me. It would explain why I have such different sides of me.
One part of me is sweet and shy and quiet and fragile and loves reading and writing.
...But the other part, the one that only started showing up a couple years ago...
That one is brave and stubborn. It's fearless and loud and doesn't take anyones sh*t. It loves loud rock music and art and wants to play guitar and scream and burn things down.
....Right now, when I'm typing this, my heart aches and I feel like crying, but the other part creates imagenary arms to comfort me...
I feel like my body is a Frakenstien of 2.
I'm tall for a girl in my family. I'm 5'7.5. Almost 5'8. I weigh more then most girls, and it's mostly muscle. and the curly hair and everything.
Then theres the glasses, and the fraigle wrists and the feeling I could've danced.
The heart of a warrior and the soul of an artist.
....I hope, that if it is true, that I had a twin brother, that I can give his side of me a chance to mark this world too.
This is for the Brother I never got to know, but feel like I've known forever.
-Ivy/?
