sigh.....

Hey. So things arent going well here. it really sucks. the kids are always screaming for some stupid reason, my dads never home, my moms always outside smoking, and lynzi is never around. i dread comming home from school everyday. it really sucks. id do anything to get out of here. but theres nothing i can ever do. theyll be here for AT LEAST 6 months. i cant deal with it. im freaking out already. im always upset about something. and i hate it cuz i feel like a cliche emo kid. im just not happy anymore. i am when im at school, away from the drama and stress here. but thats all i get. and i cnt take it. its too much. i never wanted this. i never asked for this. its stupid and overwhelming. im too young for all of this and im actually smart enuf to see that. GAH!! >.< im just so pissed all the time!! ya kno how ppl say "i went thru hell and back..." well thtz wat im doing now. going thru hell. and thtz a long walk. not something i was ready for, emotionally or physically. so im just gunna have to deal with tht. FML FML FML FML!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gah, sorry bout all tht. letting off some steam. im sure some of tht is prolly exaggerated, i just dont realize tht now.......>.< So yah. school was pretty cool today. except adam had to leave at noon for the "tooth doctor" as he calls it lol so tht was a sadface. but english was fun. me and tyler sit back to back and were ALWAYS talking. funny as hell. he actually hurt me tho! lol we were fighting as usual (just kidding around of course) and he knocked me off my chair and i landed on my back! it hurt. but we laughed about it anyway cuz it was pretty damn funny.

but also (nbd, just a topic to tlk about like the rest of this! lol) adam actually "styled" his hair! lol he decided to part it different and it looks super ossum, but rachel and shay r super pissed at eachother, RACHELS SIDE: Shay got mad at her and started fighting with her for no legit reason. Shay wouldnt give a straight up answer as to why she was mad. (Thtz wut i got out of it. it may not be accurate, but i think its close) SHAYS SIDE: rachel and stacie were talking crap about her when rachel went home with them after the dance. apparently rachel told shay tht shes trying to be apart of cliques tht she doesnt belong in, nor is wanted in. So idk. im not picking sides i told them both tht. but wutevr. itd b sweet if youd gimme ur opinion.

but yeah. thtz it. so ttyl. bai

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