I know I said I wouldn't post any bad news on here for a while, but I feel like I need to about this.
My dad came home drunk last night. I was pretty pissed, so I kept blowing up in his face every time he'd speak to me. Finally, he got tired of it and screamed right back at me. It didn't take long for my mom to get involved. They argued for a while and My dad started to get violent. Next thing I know, my sister is screaming and crying. He then started to yell at me again and keeps poking me hard in the chest. He was inches away from my face, but I didn't move. I guess I kind of went blank. A few minutes later he grabs his shot gun, so I pull it away from him. But, of course, he had another one in a case under the couch. So he grabs it and starts to walk out of the door. I then assume he's going to shoot us and then himself, but he doesn't. Instead he stops and yells at us some more. My mom tells him to go outside with her so they can talk. You could tell that she was really scared. I begged her to stay, but she refused. She secretly handed me her cell phone and whispers, "Call your grandpa." I expected her to tell me to call the police. So, when they go outside I call my grandpa. When my grandpa and my uncle finally arrive, my dad continues to yell and I even heard him say that he was going to have to kill them, but he doesn't. Eventually, they calm him down and take him to their house. That night was the first night I'd ever cursed in front of my sister.
I constantly say that I hate my dad, but the truth is that I love him more than anyone. Even if he does treat me the worst. If he had killed himself, I probably would have too. After all, it would have been my fault for making him angry in the first place. I've decided to keep my mouth shut from now on. I wont speak unless spoken to. At first I was kind of hoping that he'd kill himself. It would finally be over. Is that bad? Is it bad that I thought, even for a minute, that thing would be better off if he were dead?
I don't expect any of you to read all of that, but I thank you if you did. I don't want you to feel sorry for me, I just needed to at least TYPE about it.. After all, from the blogs I've read, my life isn't as nearly as bad as some of you guy's.
