Quite proud of myself =)

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Quite proud of myself =)

*grins* Okay so i don't deal with stress well. Anyone who actually knows me - and i mean really knows me - knows that despite my calm facade, i'm like the worst person when it comes to dealing with stress. Lately ive been super stressed out about important shit like money and paying for college and getting student loans and starting school again soon. So, getting along with my story, earlier i was really anxious and stressed out and just could not calm down. For once i didn't do something stupid - like blow up at my little sister who was innocently, yet obliviously, chattering my ear off about some game she was playing, or revert to old bad habits, or say fuck it all i am gonna go watch criminal minds and put this off some more. Instead, i started munching on the huge family plus sized bag of cheese balls my mom gave me (she bought it for herself, only to find it was wayyyy too big of a bag for her to finish, so she handed it off to me) and perusing the internet until i'd calmed down. I wasn't even trying to calm myself down, i was just trying to give myself some space withotu completely putting it all off so i could get my head back in the game and finish up what i was doing with a clear head. I am noticing, however, that ever since i put old bad habits behind my i've begun eating when bored or stressed instead. Hehe. Ah well, i'm stick thin and probably still underweight from past depression so if anything it can't be a bad thing. But yeah, just felt like letting everyone know that instead of doing something stupid, or putting off stress-inducing yet necessary tasks, i handled things a ton better. =D Now to try to keep things that way...ugh. >_< I cringe just thinking about how i have to tell my parents that money for classes is due soon and i seriously doubt we have that kinda money. Brilliant. *sigh* I can already feel myself getting stressed out again...i wonder if just plain numbing my emotions would help any. Maybe it would...

Keep running!
~ Kari