Anyone available?

Ugh. this past semester i was worse than ever before, then around early to mid may i got better and stayed better, but this past week i've just been going in another downward spiral. this time my best friend isn't here for me, she's too busy wallowing in her own problems to even contact me...she talked to me for the first time in a week, but she's got so much stuff on her shoulders i dont wanna add to it. So yeah the only one i have is her sister, who doesn't know the vast majority of things, to talk to. Anyone wanna let me vent/talk to them? For the first time in weeks, ive been wondering if i'd be better off dead. Not saying im suicidal, im not, i just dont want it to get to that point again...anyways, ive ranted enough, i'll quit bothering you guys. Its not like anyone will read this anyways...

keep running,
~ Kari