pure happiness..i need advice.

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pure happiness..i need advice.

i'm happy right now, i'm over my friends house, we went on these snowmobile <-what ever it was called) and drove around.it was so fun, even though i was scared 2 death. well yea but the problem is that i hate school. and not like 'school' i hate the people in it..or well the people hates me. i have friends who leave me to talk to my X-bf who hates me and makes everyone else hate me because of course he talks alot to random people and has almost everyone in school as friends. so now i just sit in class and no one talks to me and i hate it! i hate being alone. i only have 2 friends who thinks he's a complete ass and won't talk to him. i only have 2 REAL friends. and one doesn't even go to my school anymore.
and i don't wanna seem like the controlling friend so i wont tell them this "hey i went out with this dude and now he just got randomly mad at me and randomly hates me. yea and because we didn't work out, you're not allowed to hang with him."
i did tell them that it bothers me that they talk to him but i wont say not to talk to him.
...so i kinda gave them the choice... hurt me and still talk to him, or be a friend and don't talk to him. and well...they choose the first one. AND its not like theres anything wrong with talking to him its just that i'm alone. completely alone.
when we were on this trip i got tired of being alone, so i walked up to them, grabbed my friend, and pulled her away. then she said "wait, he has my water bottle i'll b back in 5 minutes. " and then she turns around and goes back. and nevercomes back to me. leaving me alone. i'm sorry 4 ranting but i just don't wanna go back to school. i really really don't PLEAASE PLEASE SOMEONE GIVE ME ADVICE ON WHAT TO DO! PLEASE