In all honesty.. a confession. 1) friends.

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In all honesty.. a confession. 1) friends.

(in this letter/blog thing there will be alot of complaining or me saying stuff that could most likely waste your time, but this is my blog, and the only blog i have. so just saying, i use this as an outlet)

okay okay, to my best guy MCR fan friend, i just wanna say thankyou. and i'm sorry our dreams are ruined <3
to my best friend. I'm not perfect, I will live my own little life. I will do my own things. and yes i will make mistakes. and yes i will try to have fun with you because i think that some stuff are not as fun without a friend.
to my other best friend, what? did you forget that i'm human? that i do have feelings? you cant just accuse stuff. and you CAN NOT call me all these names.
to the friend who calls me amazing. thankyou, it might not look it, but it really makes my day when someone tells me i look amazing every time i see them. i think your beyond amazing.
now i know i can't get to everybody, but there is this one last person that i know i need to include.
the guy i like.
okay i know you make bad decisions, you tell me all the time that life screws you over. open your eyes. there is someone there who is willing to love you. you say that no girl will ever be able to deal with your bullshit. well unlike your ex, there is a girl who wants to deal with your bullshit. I believe in you. you are so talented, so awesome, and beautiful. don't let people bother you. and i know i tell you this all the time, and that it creeps you out, but i'm always here for you. you say you don't smile, i seen you smile. and it's beautiful.
do you know, that if i see you across the room i cant help but smile myself? -stupid, sappy, corny, but true. i think about you alot. but a part of me gives up because you just dont like me. i respect that your not ready for a relationship. so i'll wait. and when you are, i'll be here. it's a risk, the chances of you liking me when you are ready are very slim. but i would take that chance. you told me you would die for me. well i'll tell you right now, i'll die for you as well. i'll always be here.

and for anyone who actually read this thankyou for reading my problems. you are amazing to keep on reading this.