I need help.

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I need help.

Everything is just falling apart. and i'm just having a really hard time dealing with it. I kissed a boy yesterday, who I didn't like... like.. at all.. and U am really anxious about that, because that was kind of like my first "real" kiss and I fucked it up. And now I'm hearing that my sister might be moving back in.. and she is a fucking train wreck, so that is making me nervous... And I don't want that kid to go blabbing through my school about our kiss. And I talked to him about it and he said he wouldn't but I am still scared.. and I just. I can't deal. I feel like shit, and my arm still hurts from getting a shot a few days ago, and my dad was talking to me tonight about how I was being "mean: yo my sister. And like I love my dad. He is the only I have. and my sister was lying tonight. and I called her out on it. Maybe it was mean, but I am tired of all the bullshit fucking lies she throws and I am done with that shit. My parents just want a relationship with her so bad that they are willing to look past those things, but I am not. And everything is just falling apart. and I can't deal. And all my "friends: are busy with their own shit and I can't fucking blame them because I am an annoying asshole. So I have escaped online to, IDk, get help or advice or something, cuz I need it right now. I need someone to be there for me. I can't do this alone. Please someone help me. I need help. Please help me. Save me from myself. I feel like I'm loosing my mind. Please help me.Please.