I have realized something

Whenever I write these depressing blogs, they are written after several days of not being able to sleep. You see, when i don't sleep, I have more time to ponder life than the average human being. It's not like I don't want to sleep either. I REALLY REALLY REALLY do. I just can't. so I lay, and ponder and ponder and ponder life and I always come to some depressing conclusion about my life. Whatever that conclusion may be, it gets me stressed, which makes sleeping even harder. Then, comes the panic attacks because I already have depression, which makes life more exhausting, but now I have sleep deprivation, and now i'm stressing out about something that hasn't happened yet, or already happened. Then you add school to that, and my mind is fucking exploding.

With that being said, I usually get like an hour of sleep here and there per day, but this is different. i have literally not slept in three days. I feel awful. I can't sleep. I feel like my body is slowly shutting down. So doe any1 know how I could get some sleep?

-JQ