A Rose Amongst The Weeds (new song by me)

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A Rose Amongst The Weeds (new song by me)

A rose amongst the weeds
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My eyes are always staring, have you noticed
Begging you to share your gift, oh it’s hopeless
I may not be on your “to do” list
But I just want you to know this

It’s healthy to have these hopes and dreams
Even it seems they will never come true
Just know that I still believe
One day I will be with you

Without you with me I can’t seem to get any sleep
Even after eighty six thousand and four hundred damn sheep
And still counting, jeez, I could even make a farm
I think to myself as I stare at the ceiling, waiting for the alarm

As I tuck you in, and kiss your cheek
It seems my heart has sprung a leak
And as I tightly hold onto your hand
For once in my life I don’t feel damned

I will supply the broken heart
And you bring the stitches that you’ll need to mend it
But I will just rip it back apart
Just so you can fix it again, you’re my medicine kit

So tell me what is love if it’s not a bullshit lie
Maybe just a contagious disease in my eyes
But I have to admit I find I’m gullible
So I’ll love you until the end of time

And if you would one day just say to me that you love me too
It would be enough, would be enough
But if you said you didn’t want me as much as I want you
I could call your bluff, call your blush

You are a rose amongst the weeds
Painted red from how often I bleed
You’re growing slowly just above me
And living proof love won’t ever leave

I feel so empty without you, I feel so empty and hollow
It must be all the blood loss, I’m donating it to my floor
I’ll just use these pills to fill me up again, an anxious swallow
And my last request is I want to be buried under your floor

I apologize with my eyes, water dripping onto knives
But what is the easiest way to say goodbye, well I’ve…
I’ve put two blueberry pancakes in the toaster
‘Cause I know it was your most favorite flavor

When I needed you the most
You were always there
And if I turn into a ghost
Baby, don’t be scared
Please just offer a toast
To a life we shared

If I look up and see a flower
I will know that it’s from you
I’m counting down the hours
Until I get the haunt you too
Like you did to me, keeping me up every night
Tossing turning, I was haunted at first sight

They say I’m at rest, but I can’t rest without you
Even in my sleep I cant stop thinking about you
I will come back just to haunt you
To show you how I still want you

You are a rose amongst the weeds
Painted red from how often I bleed
You’re growing slowly just above me
And living proof love won’t ever leave