Bury Me With A Shovel, Just In Case (new song by me)

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Bury Me With A Shovel, Just In Case (new song by me)

Bury Me With A Shovel Just In Case
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The doctors say I only have about a week to live
So we should just bury me now and get it over with

My psychiatrist got me free meds which I was always careful to hide
Just in case somebody realized the Vitamin “C” was for Cyanide
But he tricked me; the “C” was really for Conscious-suicide
And it’s only a matter of time until they think I’ve died

They thought I was dead
Oh how I wish that they were right
But I’ve just woken up tonight
Even though I’ve already been put to bed

I’m thinking to myself as I lay in this mortuary, what if we all die now
Who will bury us, bury us alive, and when we wake up who’ll dig us out
What if death just joke, ha-ha, and you simply get head-to-toe paralyzed
Imagine after you choke you’re completely aware with frozen staring eyes

I’m reminiscing all of my regrets
That were never even a choice
Like how the rope was ready around my neck
But my parents were woken up by the noise

I wake up to walls all around
Screaming for my life until I’m red-faced
I don’t want to die this way
But nobody can hear a dead man’s sound

It’s hard to move, it hurts to breathe
When you feel used, you feel like me
I, the star of the funeral myself, was literally just forgotten, underrated, and ignored
Finger painted clearly with my gore was “I want to be cremated” written on my door

I’ll dig my way out, dig my way out
And scream and shout, scream and shout
Even if my nails break, they can’t hear the sound, and if I’m never found
I’ll still never back down, never back down, no matter how deep underground

I’ve been buried alive
Drowning in my pool of blood
After just one little dive
My claustrophobic casket floods

Every time you bring what I left behind
Always reminding me of how I lost my mind
It’s not that you didn’t fully see, you just didn’t care about the signs
When you saw me you reacted as if I was a dull crackerjack prize to find

So how can you not hear my screams
‘Cause I can clearly hear your laughter fall
Along with somebody yelling “Sweet dreams”
And another “he was always dead-weight after all”

You’re laughing at my misery
And doing Death’s dirty work
Adding insult to injury
“Here lies a big fat jerk”

Planting a flower on my grave
So the roots keep the dirt stuck
And you even had my casket paved
Inscribed in the cement “you’re fucked”

Death isn’t fair and with him you’re siding
I wanted to face my fears but I didn’t have this in mind, please
Whenever confronted with socializing I was always hiding
Well, now you know where to find me

I wake up to walls all around
Screaming for my life until I’m red-faced
I don’t want to die this way
But nobody can hear a dead man’s sound

Can you find me, can I be found
Before my time has all run out
As I take my last breath of air
My eyes freeze up in a stare

I die mere minutes after my funeral
And found dead just a bit after the burial
They finally realize that my life wasn’t fair at all
“For once in his miserable life his skin looks beautiful”

They thought I was dead
Oh how I wish that they were right
But I’ve just woken up tonight
Even though I’ve already been put to bed

Pure inhumane torture, all I want is to end this
I’m still with the same old goal; suicide is painless
But my last few gasps of useless air feel endless
Almost as if slowly receiving Death’s infamous kiss

So ask me, would I trade lives? Oh, in a heartbeat
At least they have a chance of survival with theirs
But now I’m tucked in tight, I’ve been buried alive, stuck deep beneath their feet
And the polite response to “did we ever check his vitals?” is “who fucking cares”

I’ve been buried alive
Drowning in my pool of blood
After just one little dive
My claustrophobic casket floods

Now how does it feel to die in your own casket
I know that’s what you’re thinking so just ask it
Sure it hurts, but what does not kill you only makes you stronger
They thought I died young, but I got to live a few minutes longer

The doctors give me about a week to live
I say just bury me now and get it over with