All Or Nothing (new song)

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All Or Nothing (new song)

All or nothing

You told me to just give up
Well, I did again and again
Remember when I opened the lids
And I know that I will never live up
I wont even pretend to reach in the end
A fifth of what you condemned me with

You tell me not to dream, so I swallowed a few doses just to doze off in spite
I only seem to see clear with my eyes closed, only then things seem right

Father will you even look at me
You shook your head, I know, I’m dead to you
And what you took from me
All the pills in the medication trail led to you

And if you were right, and it all goes to hell
Instead of sleeping comfortably in altering hotels
I end up on the streets, keeping what I felt
But I will still try to buy a car to not use the seat belt

I will not only grab, but also I will jump at the opportunity, literally
But if life was just trying to fool me I will illustrate the rule of gravity

Papa, I don’t I know what to follow
Tell me, what will come tomorrow
Did you ever feel this sorrow
Did you ever feel this hollow

I’m gambling with life
But I’m holding all the dice
And if life is just a game
I’m done playing nice

Well it’s all or nothing
Don’t think I’m bluffing
Because If I lose, you will win
Just make some new children

You tell me, you say that you were exactly the same
Then why don’t you own
All these pills for the pain
And have suicide-hotline’s number saved on your phone

Papa, I don’t I know what to follow
Tell me, what will come tomorrow
Did you ever feel this sorrow
Did you ever feel this hollow

You think you’ll be the one saying “I told you so”
Well, I can say it no matter which way life goes