I cant take it im DONE

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I cant take it im DONE

Im so so Sorry everyone
Im really sorry to tell you this but last night was to much for , me
my parents just yelled and shouted at me all night long , saying that i was selfish and only cared about my self and that ill get no were in life. after they were finished yelling at me i went to my room and cryed my hert out , they dont understand how bad the depression has gotten i need help , i cant take it any more i cant put up with school or teachers family friends, anything , im done and im sorry to say but i almost cut last night , but mum called me for dinner before the knife periced my skin , then at dinner i got yelled at more and after i was excused i became scared not of my parents but of myself , im still scared of who i have become and im not sure how to get through life anymore , i didnt sleep in my own bed last night i slept in the corner of my room crying and the it hit me the only way out was death , i got my scarf and put it around my neck ad tight as i could and then swallod pandol hopping i would just go in slinence
, but it wasnt working so i took it off ...

But all i want is to be happy but it dosent work , i dont want to cry anymore i dont want to feel the pain anymore i want help i want a hug i want to smile agin i want to feel warm i just want to feel normal if there is any chance in that , but most of all im scared of myself and though i may smile day after day and be nice to everyone i am.
even though i breathe still im not sure which will be my last

xxo Toxic Cryer xxo.