My friends are being bitches :/

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My friends are being bitches :/

I've gotten over it now - well, I was over it yesterday really - but I've noticed that my friends are being, shall we say, 'off' with me.
I don't expect to be treated like a princess, I know I can be annoying at times. I'd just like, you know, to be treated like people want me around, and at the moment only M seems to want me around. It was getting me down all this week, but now I just think, well, fuck them. I'm me. I'm awesome. If they want to hang around with me, they can treat me with a bit of respect.
Basically, the other day in Biology we were all having a big discussion. I can't remember how, but we got onto the topic of what would happen if your boyfriend was bi and wanted to experiment a bit. As a girl, you can fulfill pretty much all of his girl related needs, but you can't do all that much about him wanting to experiment with boys - if you're ok with him experimenting, that is - especially not if he wants to be on the uh, recieving end. Then they all got disgusted because I used the word 'penetrate', which is perfectly fine in the context of the conversation, I think, and moved all their chairs away and turned away and wouldn't talk to me for the rest of the lesson.

Then yesterday was the day after the Manchester Kill Hannah concert, and A and N went to it. Quite obviously, they were raving about it all day, which I was fine with - God knows they must put up with me raving about M a lot. But in the morning, A just kind of ignored me whenever I said anything that wasn't related to Kill Hannah, which was kind of difficult seeing as I don't listen to them (back in Year 8 I decided I wasn't allowed to like them and now I can't listen to them in case I do :D It's a matter of personal honor for me). Then, in Games, A was sat right near the end of a bench and I was half on it. She moved further along, and so did I so that I could sit on the bench properly, and she went,
"STOP TRYING TO SIT NEAR ME, I DON'T LIKE IT!" then moved up to the other end of the bench and made N and MK sit in between us. That got me quite down, because none of them tried to speak to me either (I'm not saying I expect everyone to talk to me, I do try and start conversations with other people).
SS saw I was looking really upset and took me outside, and we had a really nice chat. She's a lovely girl, really cheered me up. Strangely enough, the populars at our school are actually mostly nice people (apart from this one girl, but none of them like her and crazy shit is brewing on the horizon where she's concerned) and they were the only ones that bothered to ask if I was ok.
I was pretty pissed off at A for most of the day and stayed in the library all break and lunch (where I saw R and said hi to him, and he just walked off :/), and only Ro made any real attempt at having a conversation with me. Then, towards the end of the day I thought I might as well forget about it all since A's taking me on holiday to Florida this summer, so I need to not have some kind of big fight with her. I was talking to her in assembly the way I normally do, and she just ignored me. Barely even turned to acknowledge my presence.
So yeah...
I'm not sure whether she deserves to hear my big personal news about today, and I want to tell someone but R's not replying on facebook - i think he's gone off somewhere.
Bobberson xx