All Mixed Up.

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All Mixed Up.

Oh boy, where do I start? Ok, tomorrow is the day we get the weekly visit from my youngest ddaughter (13), and I really enjoy her visits, I do. But tomorrow is also the 6th anniversary of my dad's death. I know, 6 years is a long time, but I was a carer for him, and nan, from the age of 8, that, for dad, equates to 28 years of care, and, even though I had 3 older brothers, I was the one with carers training, (I'm a trained care assistant), so I was the one to give baths, change dressings, attend when the nurse or doctor came, etc. So I can't remember dad as a parent, he was a client as well. At the funeral, I had mom, my aunt, and my brothers all falling apart, and 3 daughters, 2 autistic to come home to, so there was no time for me to grieve, and I still havent. 6 months after he died, I was diagnosed with depression which I've had ever since. I just don't know how I'm supposed to feel now. I can't remember the good times, those last few weeks of care have kind of blanked them out. Any advice anyone? I'm falling apart here.