He broke me.

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He broke me.

He "likes it rough". He is a virgin. He gives great massages. He carries brass knuckles wherever he goes. He is two years older than me. He is heartbroken over another girl that he still has feelings over. He likes music that I detest, and vice versa. He also likes decent music, though. He doesn't cut himself, but that makes him more dangerous. He's attempted suicide multiple times. He doesn't go to the same school as me. His favorite color is lightning blue. He wears his hair very short. He love the stars. He loves the moon. He loves the sky. He loves the dark.He lives in poverty. His parents don't care what he does. He refuses to smoke cigarettes. He smokes pot. He drinks every weekend to forget his pain.
Does this sound like the kind of guy (or you could pretend it's a girl if you are a guy) you would fall in love with the day you meet him? Apparently it is for me. I've been apathetic to literally everything for months, and he broke that. He broke me. Now I'm dizzy, my heart aches, and he won't get the fuck out of my mind. All I want is for him to be happy. I've never wanted that for anyone like this. I don't even want myself to be this happy. He broke me. The bastard...that I'm totally and completely in love with
So...help? What do you think of him? What do I do? Anything? Please?